Queen Among Queens

What would I do without Jan Ramilo and Victor Garcia?

I don’t even know!

+Please please please lemme get hired at Century!
-If this happens, please please please gimme day shifts every once in a while so I can see my boyfriend!
-Day shifts on Friday especially. I should’ve kept that as my day off. I’ll get cool with Derek or something. If I’m hired. =(
-Note to self, fill out work permit, and find SSC card! SHIT.

+Please please please let this Friday be a good one, I wanna spend time with Happy. That’s all I really want.

I miss my boyfriend.
I miss my Kitty.
I miss my Best Friend.
I miss Jan Castillo Ramilo.

Life Update.

Haha, shit, it’s been a while!

Where did I leave off… OH. Senior ball was pretty fucking fun! Sober boyfriend, hot ass dance floor, cold ass deck, cute ass group pictures, jack in the boxxxxx, hotel room comedy, and no sleep at all! Everything a prom should be, pretty much. Then food the next morning and I was fucking out like a light.

Monday was the leadership banquet and Happy went with me! Big surprise. HAHAHAHA my dumbass hit the mic stand when I was receiving the award. HAHAHAHAHAA. Okay. Anyway. Then we went boxer shopping for him. Hahahaha. Cute shit! I like how he asks me which pack I like better and then he ends up picking the other. -__- Thennnnn we went home like… later. HAHA. ANYWAY.

Today’s the one month. Hahaha. It was pretty cute. Shopping spree for him yesterday and “one month dinner”. Pineapple chicken though! Hahahaha. Amazing how whenever I go to the mall with him I rarely come up. He makes me a good girl and keeps me in check I guess. (Ha-ha). Actually, I got a “I don’t do happy” pin. Hahahaha. Spencer’s is an interesting place. “Mount and do me.” “Five dollar foot long.” HAHA. It’s always fun when we’re with Mimi and Luigi. Hahahaha. Thoseeee loverrrrssss. But the last two times there’s been an assload of walking. Yup. Anyway, today my lazy ass managed to get out of bed and make him some cupcakes! Hahaha. Came to school right before 5th period lunch. Failed attempt at trying to hide them, but it’s goood. I think he liked them. I KNOW Ricky liked them cause he ate the whole other tray. Hahaha. He gets cupcakes tomorrow cause it’s his 17th birfffdaaaaaay. Yay! PGA, hopefully. I wanna ride fucking drop zone over and ovver and over again! Yuuuuup. Hahaha. Anyway. I like how everyone asks if I’m trippin’ ‘cause he didn’t do anything “special” for me today. Uh, nah, not even. It’s the thought that counts, and he does his best to spend time with me when he can, and I think that’s all that really matters. Right now he’s just busy with work and gradnight. It’s cool, I’ll just see him tomorrow morning.

I’m gonna try my BEST to wake up. ‘Cause shit I feel like shit! I wanna fucking die!

HAHA, NO I DON’T. That’s just me complaining about my life. You already know. What’s good. I’ve been coughing non fucking stop. It gets kinda old after a while. When I’m about to laugh, I cough instead. -____- But whatever, my willpower is fucking exceptional. I will wake up tomorrow and be at school during zero period probably.

Anyway. I should get a yearbook huh? Hellaaaaaaa slippin’, QT!

Glad I’m finishing off this school year strong! Yay me! Shit.

WEAHHHHHHH!

Love, QT.

+

Our communication is good!
Thanks for listening to me and actually checking how you treat me.
I know you never meant any of it, but still.
Some things can get really old really fast.

So tomorrow is senior ball and I still have to figure out my game plan for tonight.
I still have to find Happy a gold tie.
Hopefully Steph can just borrow one for me?
I hope.
I need some nice gold accessories too.
I want a pizookie or some ice cream.
Nah. I definitely want a pizookie!!

Eh, I need to make a plan or schedule:

Today/Tonight:
Pick up corsage and boutoniere.
Go home and stick it in the fridge.
Go to the mall and be sure to get Happy’s tie and my accessories.
Spend time with my baby, but go home relatively early.
Shower and wash hair.
Clean up eyebrows.
Self pedicure.
Make sure Mama gives me $$$$ for tomorrow on time.
Homework homework homework.
Sleep.

Tomorrow:
Wake up early.
Shower.
Eat.
Put overnight bag together.
Nails? (I hope)
Make up appointment at 12:30.
Julz’s house to get readyyy.
Happy picks me up?
Pick up garter.
Pictures at school.
Alcazar’s house for pictures.
Swoop up Ricky.
Prom!

Let’s hope and pray everything goes well!

I woke up yesterday with a good head on my shoulders.
I had my independent study work done.
My stupid ortho was easily rescheduled to Thursday.
School was a breeze and I actually went to Statistics.
And I went to the City with Happy, Mimi, and Luigi.
I thought I was going to have a ball like I usually do.
But truth be told, I’m already getting tired of being treated the way he’s been treating me.
It was cute in the beginning.
‘Cause it just seemed like we were doing the 2nd grade “I-hate-you-but-secretly-not-so-secretly-like-you” thing.
Then he got out of hand with it, pushing me away.
Telling me to shut the fuck up.
Damn, I must be a really patient girlfriend.
And I really must care about him and want him around because I don’t fire my mouth at him or trip out ever.
I am chill.
When I’m mad, I’m just quiet and I let myself get over it.
And now I’m starting to question whether or not I should even be letting him off the hook that easy.
Naturally, I’m just chill about things and I just let it all go because I’m not the type to start some conflict if I feel that it’s not necessary.
Sometimes I feel like he just takes advantage of the way I am.
Because he knows I won’t trip.
I don’t know.
It’d be nice if he was actually considerate about how I felt.
But he “doesn’t give a fuck”.
So.
I don’t know.
He’s great most of the time.
Don’t get me wrong.
I have a lot on my mind.
I’m not happy right now.

My mom kicked me out.
My dad makes me cry.
I’m tired of being taken for granted.

Rest in Peace, Johnny Rodelas

I can’t believe someone as great as you had to leave us so soon. Your smile was infectious, your humor cheered anyone and everyone up, and you were all around, without a doubt in my mind, one of the greatest guys anyone could’ve ever known. It’s still so surreal to me; tomorrow morning I’m going to walk into Mr. Campbell’s class and I’m glance at your assigned seat in the back knowing you just won’t be there. Then I’ll glance at the seat next to Aeryk in the hopes of finding you there also… But you won’t be. But don’t trip Johnny, I gotchu when Campbell says attendence. He probably won’t ask where you are, but if he does, Victor and I will point to our hearts. Always. But I know you’ll be looking out for us, like you did when you were here.

If it’s not too much to ask, I’d love you even more if you looked out for Victor. Everyone has taken your loss to heart, but no one probably took it as hard as he did. He really misses you. We all do. And now I feel kind of stupid because I already know you will. Save a spot up there for me will ya, Johnny? We’ll hooka in heaven. See you later.

We love you.

Peace, and God bless.

Your girl, QT.

Besides the shitload of stress that school is bringing me I’m blessed to have such a great guy by my side. What can I say? I’m happy with Happy. =]

“Across the Universe”

I’m basically running on no sleep, but hey, I might as well blog now while everything is still fresh in my mind. I started getting ready for prom at like 10AM. Yay-yee came over at like… 1PM. Started on the make up. Picked up his boutoniere and the garter. Took hella time with the hair. Dressed up and packed my night back. Waited for Happy for hella days. My family was hella funny. He finally arrives and we take pictures. We finally leave, and arrive to Mimi’s hella late for pictures. We go to school to take pictures. My feet hurt like a bitch in the sexy heels, but luckily Happy parks hella close. Change into sandals. The boys go to A1. Me, Mimi, and Melin head to her house and Taco Bell. “Damn girl you look hella thick.” “Excuse me, are you a model?” “I could’ve sworn I seen you on the cover of a magazine this morning.” LOL. Anyways! We beat the boys back to Logan. Hydrate a little. And off to prom we go! The inside looked fucking great, the food and everything was so good. On point, yup. Then Happy spilled his drink on my dress while I was on his lap. -___- Then we danced for a while. More dancing. Uhhh, yeah. All the boys looked like strippers in there. Hahaha. Last song = “Best I Ever Had” Pretty fitting, I’d say. Fast forward to the telly. Kitty catted. Ambrose, Nhi, Steph, Miguel, and Judith chilled for a while, then bounced to get fooood. Sarah and Victor and Sarinna and Reyes and Krystal and Rhea came to our room. The last four bounced for food. Mimi and LuLu retired to their room. Me and Happy did too. I’m sorry, I’m a sucker for cuddling dude. Hahhaa. Anyway. It’s official now. As of this morning. =] I really didn’t want him to leave in the morning. Hahhaa. Actually, I don’t really want him to leave ever. But they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Hahaha. Love, QT

You win some, you lose some.

It’s been a while since I’ve last updated my tumblr, huh? I guess you could say that I’ve just been caught up with some things like preparing for prom(s) and being happy so not a lot of things have been on my mind lately. My mind’s drifted elsewhere, looking forward to summer and it just isn’t coming up fast enough for me. We’ve got a month left though. A puny four weeks, that’s all I gotta tell myself, but damn, I’m getting so impatient. I’m trying my best to hold on to what little motivation I have left to finish off this year strong, but damn, it’s so hard! The only class I’m really stressing about it Stat. And maybe English, cause it’s just annoying to have to do all this pointless work. Omg. It’s just struggle to have to do all this work for one credit. Everything’s accelerated and I’ve been procrastinating so much lately, holy shit. I don’t even have enough motivation to go to stat everyday. Oh God help me! Haha, I’m turning into such a useless bum. But Mr. O is a good teacher and I know he will help me at least pass my final… with a B.

Anyway, the whole college thing is a sore subject with me. Apparently the maternal unit doesn’t wanna help me pay so I’ve gotta do everything on my own now. Bitch move, right? I try really hard to make her happy and be the trophy daughter she wants so she can brag to all her coworkers in the computer room about how I’m going to make a lot of money when I grow up and take care of her in the future and all of the other snobby shit I know she does despite herself. But hey, maybe if she doesn’t pay for my college tuition and whatnot that makes terminates my liabilty of preserving her health and well being?

Ha, fuck. It really doesn’t.

I just want out.

It’s been a while! Haha, damn, I didn’t even make any posts over spring break or anything either? That must mean I’ve been having toooo much fun. Anyway! There’s six days til Junior Prom and I am juuuuiceddddd. My dress came in the other day, and I like it a lot! I’m happy. Mmmmk, time for homeworkkkk.